Well hey guys it’s been a minute!! I didn’t get around to writing an update for May. So here is the update from the last little bit.
M A Y :
May was truly one of the busiest months of my life. I was bouncing from one thing to the next and there was no downtime. But we made it through! And in the midst of it all, I saw the Lord show up. I find it beautiful how the Lord meets us in the different times of life, like He really does walk with us. I saw the Lord in the busy moments, I saw Him show up with joy and grace. And in the few quiet moments the Lord met me again with beauty and deeper understanding of His heart for me.
With this, a few things happened during this time and suddenly I was questioning the Lords timing and plan. It is in these moments where I wonder why the Lord has called me to The Race. Honestly when these moments of doubts and questions came I didn’t get a big answer from the Lord. But I know that the Lord has called me to The Race, and the call of the Great Commission is the same. The Lord is faithful and unchanging and I know all of this to be true. However in these moments of doubt I felt challenged with the question of “will you still go?”
J U N E:
Fast forward to now and life has slowed down ever so slightly, but time still seems to be flying by. I am finding that as The Race quickly comes the doubts and lies seem to come in fast and strong. In this, it is so easy to let myself build up a wall to the Lord. In my flesh I find it easier to just put on the mask of being okay, when in reality that is not what the Lord desires. I find that the more I let the Lord in during these moments of doubt, He comes in so sweetly. Never once has the Lord been angry or disappointed in my doubts. It is actually quite the opposite, He listens and reminds me of who He is. He takes me deeper into His glory and carries me through. Anyways the Lord is sweet and kind, tender and loving, reining, worthy, and deserving and that is why despite the challenges we still go.
R O U T E C H A N G E:
So if you saw my instagram stories you saw that my Race Route has changed. The original trip that I signed up for up for was going to Ethiopia, Thailand, Cambodia, and Guatemala. Long story short this trip has been cancelled due to the proportion of leaders to Racers. This came as quite the shock to me. I truly felt like these original four countries are where the Lord wanted me. Months ago when signing up for The Race, I spent a lot of time in prayer over what route I should be on. And I felt like that was the one. So with this big change so close to leaving, there definitely has been disappointment.
However I know that there is a reason that I was put on my original trip and there is a reason that it is now changing. I know that the Lord has a plan even though I truly do not understand. When I found out about this change, the same question from before came to mind of “will you still go?” Honesty my reaction to this was I don’t know if I want to. However I know that going to these original countries was never what it was about, it was about being obedient to the call of the Lord and saying yes. Regardless of the country or place at the end of the day it Has to be about Jesus. It has to be about bringing Him glory and making Him known among many people.
So now what? Well right now I believe that I will be going to Eswatini, Malaysia, Guatemala, and Nicaragua. I know that the Lord has a plan for all of this, and I am choosing to cling to that. Jesus is on His throne and hasn’t left and it will all be okay! I have so much more to say but I fear this post is getting long!
F U N D R A I S I N G U P D A T E:
WOOOHOOOO 68% Funded!! Hallelujah, the Lord is so so good. I am still in need of $6,222. I believe that this will come in! Please continue praying over this trip and all the funds needed! It is a blessing to see the way that so many have invested into this care about many hearing the gospel.
P R A Y E R R E Q U E S T:
As of today I leave in 75 days. That’s crazy, as this approaches I ask y’all continue to pray over my heart and my mind. That despite the change of plans that I would continue to trust in the Lord and His will.
Please pray against spiritual attacks and distractions! As the day I go approaches so do many doubts and anxiety. Pray for strength to resist the enemy and cling to Jesus. I truly feel like all of the sudden there are many things to do and places to be. There is a lot going on and many distractions.
Pray over the those that I am going with, pray for unity that we would be found together at the feet of Jesus seeking nothing but Him.
In all of this, the doubts, the excitement, the prepping, and the going I pray Jesus is glorified.
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